It’s basically first nature for me to get really sappy every year on my birthday. I always use it as an opportunity to reflect on my past year, just like NYE but so much more personal. I had worked on a ’20 lessons of my 20s’ post for the last 6-8 months and only recently decided against posting it. I feel like my world has somewhat been turned upside down over the last couple of months, in a good way, but when rereading my ‘lessons’ I worked so hard on compiling and detailing out, they no longer resonated with me. I can still see a glimmer of the mindset I was in when I initially wrote out the majority of that post, but in truth, it’s nothing in comparison to what I’m thinking and feeling now. I almost feel like complacency really got the best of me and in an effort to ‘figure it all out’ I was spinning around these recurring concepts, without actually really hitting the nail on the head. In an attempt to jolt me out of it, it feels like the Universe threw me a serious curve ball.
Like most 20-somethings, I did a lot of bouncing around and ‘figuring myself out’ during episodes of great success and some pretty epic failures as well. I think if I’ve learned anything, it’s to remain open. Like, really, really open. I’ve always considered myself someone who was self-aware and prioritized personal growth, but that didn’t stop me from subconsciously putting up some SERIOUS boundaries on key aspects of my life I truly needed to grow in. I know people say this all the time but personal growth is freaking hard. Really hard. Looking at qualities that you don’t like about yourself, but haven’t fully recognized yet, are really hard to uncover. For someone who prioritizes self-awareness and personal growth, I was a little shocked, and maybe a little disappointed at first, at just how much growth I needed but wasn’t seeing I needed. I will say that in the same breath, I’ve never felt more excited to take on the challenges that I seem to have uncovered over the last several months. It’s exhilarating feeling like you have a new perspective and somewhat of a new self-purpose that’s only going to be better for you in the end.
I certainly have a lot of work ahead of me, but I’ve written out a glimpse below of some of the things I intend to focus on this year. They’re super personal, but my hope is it will resonate with some of you.
Giving back more to the people I love and who already give me so much. And being more acutely aware of just how much I’m consistently given to by the people that I love.
- Controlling My Emotions.
This has always been tough for me, as I consider myself a very emotional person. I’m just starting to chip away at this and it’s already been massively helpful in my overall demeanor and personal relationships.
Truth be told, I would have never classified myself as this person but recently learned I fit into this box more than I’d like to admit. Holding myself accountable to achieving my dreams, and not stopping just because it gets hard. Keep pushing through obstacles that initially seem absolutely impossible, because I promise you there’s always a way.
- Stop Being a Victim of My Circumstances.
Continuing to stay aware that the future of my life and my path is always, 100% in my control. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. Don’t lose sight of the choices that are yours to make, but maybe not immediately in front of you.
- Learn to Make a Decision Confidently.
When life gets hard and you’re presented with a fork in the road, choose a path confidently and just. keep. trucking. Moving in a direction is better than moving in no direction.
Hands up for anyone else that has been through some recent personal challenges and are feeling pretty F-ING great about it 🖤.